Photo Journal - Josie Boettcher

I know I've been staying home a lot, but I never want it to end. We stayed home and did school today. I need to do a couple more dates still this month, but Jonas's birthday is tomorrow and I have so much prep still to do! I need to wrap his gifts and make his cake and get decorations out. In addition, I still needed to do school today and drive him to and from Lighthouse this morning. School actually went really well today though. None of us were grumpy and we got every single bit of our lessons done. I was so happy! In the afternoon, I started Jonas's cheesecake and prepped dinner.  I did not want to go to home church at all, but I did it! I made it out. And it actually was good. I just have been feeling so distant from people and the more distant I get, the more resentful I get. I know that it's a personal flaw and I'm not proud of it. I have at least learned to question myself when I get like this, but it doesn't stop the feelings from being there. Anyway, I...

We skipped CT today because we got like a million inches of snow and the roads were crazy icy, thanks to the 7-degree weather we had this morning. We did not leave the house today, except for a quick pick up from Giant Eagle. I kind of wished we had gone out somewhere? But at the same time, the weather really was ridiculously awful. Things are ok though. Ben and I are doing really good right now. I'm happy with the kids and my home life. I just hate everything else. I wish I could make it go away! I want to quit everything. I just want to lock the doors and never leave. 

Snowmaggedon!!! We had a snowstorm today that began just as we left to bring Ruby to her choir concert this afternoon and continued on allllll afternoon and evening. We had 5 inches by the time we went to bed! Ruby did a great job at her concert and, crazy enough, almost every person from the Meadow Park small group was there and they all hugged and congratulated her afterwards. It was so sweet! One of the families from the small group was also in the choir; it's not like they were there for us. But it was still really nice. We also had another friend from Wild & Free who was there and we got to chat with her a little bit. Ben was running out to the car immediately when the concert was over because of all the snow. I just wanted to visit a little bit, but he wasn't having it! We spent the rest of the afternoon hanging out and enjoying the weather.

Ok, we finally got a full school day in today. Everyone is better! We went to art class and everyone really enjoyed that. It's funny that they didn't start enjoying it until it was almost over. I really need to clean the house and mop the floors, but I'm still not up for all that mess. I'm not even ready to start cooking again yet! Although, I know Ben really wishes I would. We've just been eating little bits of leftovers or plain rice for the last week.  Clem and I went on a quick date this afternoon to Target. She was begging for this game. 😅 I did go to the mom's night out gift exchange tonight. It was a pretty good time, but I really just didn't feel like being there. I just want to stop doing everything. Can I just stop being a participant in every single part of my life that is outside of my own home?? That's what I really want. Anyway, I think I ate pork tonight, accidentally. I thought they were some kind of veggie fritter, but I heard some peop...

We stayed home all day again, but it was Clem's choir concert, so we ventured out for that in the evening. It was a little more crowded than it has been in the past, but we got our own row and tried to keep away from everyone else! Clem did an amazing job on her solo again this year and she was so grateful to have the opportunity to sing for everyone. I wasn't feeling great still, so I had to miss cell group and our pink elephant. I was looking forward to it so much! 

A rousing rendition of Rudolph the Red-Nosed Reindeer from my little sickies! We still did not go anywhere today. No throw up today, but we're not quite healthy yet. Wah.