Photo Journal - Josie Boettcher

I finally got some seeds started today! AND I cleaned the house. Despite having too much going on, I got a couple of things done that I've been wanting to do.  In the evening, we went to Millie's birthday party. Ben came along, even though he was feeling terrible. It's crazy, he's been feeling terrible physically, nearly constantly, and I've been feeling terrible emotionally, nearly constantly. We both need a break from all the terrible feelings! Okay, back to the point. We went to the party and the idea was a "sleepunder", so we'd come in pajamas and the kids would watch a movie, eat snacks, and chill. Hahahahahahahaha Kids. They did not lay down on the blankets and watch the movie and chill. They did that for like 20 minutes, and then they played tag for the next two hours. The party was 3 hours long! It was crazy. Way too long. Ben got some good time talking to the guys in the group. I wasn't included (boo), but they seemed to be having fun! I w...

Today was really nice. I mean, objectively. So when I look at my mood in relation to the day, it feels unfairly bad! I've just been so overstimulated and overwhelmed that every day is kind of a bad day. 😣 It's not right. I know it's not! It's such a terrible attitude, but it's all just too damn much right now. I don't know why my plate is shrinking, but it is. And now it's overflowing.  However, I did get to wake up a little later than usual today and get a shower before having to come down and start breakfast. We didn't do school today, just got ourselves ready for our field trip. We went to the art museum for an 11am start, but I took 70 in the wrong direction at first, so I had to turn around, making us just a few minutes late. We weren't the latest though! Haha so at least they weren't waiting for us, specifically. The museum tour was so fun! I chaperoned the bigger kids' group, which was nice. And they didn't horse around (? is that...

I haven't hung out at BJJ for a while, but I finally had some time this evening, so I planned to stay there. So sad, but Marcela was leaving just as I came in! So we didn't get to catch up at all. She gave me a bunch of hugs, and actually kissed me on my head before she left! 😅 I was disappointed to not get to hang out, but it's ok. It was a long day and I'm pretty burnt out anyway. 

Today wasn’t bad. It was a little less busy, but I still felt like I was in a rush all day. Maybe I really need to just clear my calendar for a week. Like, just cancel every single thing for a whole week and give myself time to get caught up. Could I do that?? How bad would it be? Definitely something to think about. So, today. School all morning until noon, then I got dressed, made lunch, and drove over to Jenny’s. We had a good time catching up and it felt like such a relief to tell her everything that’s been going on over here, church-wise. I start to feel guilty, like I’m hiding things, when really we just haven’t had a conversation in a while! But writing the words in here and in texts, and saying them out loud last night and today, all help me to feel more settled and less scared. I’m grateful for all of the little interactions with my friends, and the feeling that I’m not alone in all of this upheaval. After Jenny’s was grocery pick up and laundry and putting groceries away and ...