April 12, 2026 - Sunday


I found out that our HC is moving to Main Campus after May and I am super upset about it. I'm trying not to be, but these are my people and it just feels really, really sad to think I'm either saying goodbye to everyone I've built in with at 4th St. over the last 14 years (minus the few we were at the Warehouse) or I'm not going to CT with my HC, with whom things are fragile enough right now. By the end of CT today, I decided that I'm not going to move to Main Campus. I'll have to tell Jenny at some point, but if I'm going to Dwell, I want to go where I feel at home. I talked to Sarah Groom about the Hilliard HC and she made me feel pretty unwelcome, honestly. She mentioned that it's already very big and that they're going to close to transfers soon. It just feels like with the CT change and the Hilliard HC being a no, a lot of doors are closing that I didn't want to be closed. It's really painful. 

I was feeling way off for the rest of the day. Crying a lot, feeling abandoned by God, deciding that nobody loves me (even my poor parents, who did nothing wrong). I am under some serious spiritual attack and feel like I have nobody to go to about it! 

Christina ended up texting me and I dumped a little onto her. She insisted on coming over and picking me up for ice cream. So, despite my wanting to be alone, I let her pick me up and we grabbed McDonald's ice cream and talked in the car for a while. It was good and I did feel really loved by her willingness to drop everything and come get me, just because I was feeling sad. It was very healing for me, honestly. I appreciated it so much. 

It was also Jonas's last night in middle school group. He and Clem had a very emotional time at group today and Clem struggled saying goodbye to so many of her good friends who are 8th graders. I know she's going to hate everything being different! Praying that Jonas enjoys being a part of Pyro and doesn't quit. 

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