October 24, 2020 - Saturday (19/365)


Day 19 of my 365 Photo Journal (note the name change)

I've decided to change the name of this little project of mine. I think that the pressure of needing to capture/feel/post joy every day has me feeling a little stressed out. I FEEL JOY daily, just not constantly. I have been blessed with more than I ever dreamed of and enjoy my life here on Earth immensely. However, I don't always capture the joyous moments. Sometimes I get the dull, the introspective, the...whatever...moments. Sometimes I'm not feeling joy when I take the photos either. Like when I took these! 

It was pumpkin carving day; a day the kids look forward to for all of October...especially once we buy our pumpkins. I'm honestly kind of over it some years. The ages the kids are in make it hard for me to enjoy that time. It's a lot of anxiety about Jonas and Clem cutting themselves, lots of helping with designs and cuts and scooping out guts, lots and lots and lots of set up and clean up. And by evening, I'm pretty much toast. I just want to sit and stare at a wall. But INSTEAD! Ben and I set everything up and have a fun night of carving! 

Here is Ruby after expertly painting her pumpkin in her beautiful, abstract way. She's up way past bed time and dead tired, but still excited. :)

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