March 11, 2022 - Friday


I am so tired of us being sick. SO TIRED OF IT. A simple cold shuts down my entire life now. No hanging out with friends, no getting Ollie out of the house, no church. It's like I'm on quarantine again. So in addition to feeling kind of crappy physically, I'm also emotionally deprived. I'm bored/overwhelmed. I'm grateful/pissed. I'm tired/anxious to do something. 

I took Ruby to the doctor today for her cough, which is just LOUD and scary. The doc thinks maybe bronchitis? She wasn't sure (which is so reassuring!), but prescribed some things for her that will hopefully help and will at least make her not contagious anymore. Ollie seems to be doing A LOT better today. She's coughing a little, but no fever and she's back to 100% energy. She's not sneezing and her nose isn't running much anymore either. Jonas and Clem both seem to be doing a lot better too. Ben is doing good still. I'm just still stuck in this same place cold-wise. It's very frustrating. Sore throat, congestion, a little cough for days. It's not bad, but it's enough to make me tired and low-energy. And discouraged. 

I'm feeling really, really sad tonight. I feel like a terrible mom because I was so sick on Ollie's birthday (and so was she) that we didn't get any decorations out and I barely took any pictures. None of the traditional birthday pictures, at least. I was saving everything for her party. Now, I'm feeling like I'm not going to get to have a party for her at all. If we're still sick on Sunday, I'll have to cancel. Ben thinks we can reschedule again, but I just don't know. How many weeks in a row will people be willing to make plans to come over here?? I think I'm feeling more emotional than usual today, but I've been crying about this all night. I'm feeling so terrible!

I love those little princess toes!


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