November 13, 2022 - Sunday

I'm so bummed. Things are just not really going my way right now and I've been on the verge of tears for days. Have not cried though! lol Sometimes I think it would be better to just get the tears out, like that would make them go away. Anyway, time for complaining:

I've been busting my butt the last few days, trying to get organized. I cleaned my bedroom out and the basement, then my office and the den. Hours upon hours upon hours of cleaning and organizing. It's been good and I have been feeling really productive. Yesterday, though, Ben interrupts my work with panicked yelling that the freezer temp keeps going up and asking me what that means and how we fix it. Of course, I have no freaking idea whatsoever, but we start emptying it out. I call dad and he tells me I might as well order a new one now because refrigerators are difficult to fix and you often just need to replace them even if you can figure out what's wrong. SO. We start looking around and Ben is complaining and griping and acting like we have the worst damn luck in the world, which is so ridiculous. We found one that will fit in the spot for a terrible price and ordered it. I ripped the cabinet off of the wall to make sure we could have more flexibility on the size of the fridge, because apparently the size we have is atypical and not easy to replace. Then a drawer broke. It seems like not a big deal, but by now, I've fixed four of them and they're terribly inconvenient to fix. It's always hard to find the right part. We just put the drawer on the table. I'll take care of that another day. By the time that whole debacle was over, it was time for Ashley's baby shower. BUT. I was dirty and sweaty and two days unshowered. Every one of the kids were acting like psychos, so I decided to just shower and go super late (partly just to get away from the kids). The shower was fun-ish. I maintained a decent outlook throughout all of this. But...

TODAY. I'm up TOO freaking early. Thanks Ollie. Upside, I was ready for the day. We get to my very first day as CTO right on time and Nathan was calling and texting me asking whether or not I had the keys. Huh? Where tf would I have gotten the keys from? I haven't even gotten hired yet. I haven't done any paperwork, had any training, or been given any resources whatsoever (email, Google docs, KEYS, rosters, contact information, etc.). So, NO. I don't have the keys. Then he's asking me if I picked up the supply bags from main campus. HUH??? What on Earth? How was I supposed to know about that??? Does he know that he didn't hire me yet? Also, nobody volunteered to fill in for me in the baby room, so we were short on volunteers in there. I didn't think it was a big deal, but we ended up with 9 babies and half of them were crying hysterically. I went in to help and Ben angrily says, "I'm never fucking doing this again. NEVER." Thanks, Ben. That's exactly what I needed to hear on my first day: that I now need to find a replacement for you. So helpful. I kept a positive attitude throughout and, honestly, didn't hate it. We did old-school check-ins, which seemed to make Nathan very upset, but it's like, dude, be flexible. This is what it is right now. When Anne gets here with the keys, we'll get the iPads up and running and get back to normal, but we need to get started. So that's what we did. First day was a doozie! I have lots of notes, suggestions, and requests from volunteers to get to work on. We'll see how it goes! I have keys now, btw. 

When I got home, we got the turkey in (only had to run up and down the steps a dozen times to get what we needed {insert lots of cussing here}) and I did laundry, THEN started trying to fix the toilet. I had a ton of trouble with it, because I'm an idiot and messed something up. Once I figured that thing out, it seemed to go fine? We'll see if it keeps running or if this fixes the problem. HOWEVER, the water pipe behind the toilet is now leaking. 😑 And I have officially run out of positivity. I really don't feel like I have an ounce of strength to deal with a leaking pipe. HOW DO I FIX A LEAKING PIPE??? And that's where I am right now. I made a cup of tea, had to run downstairs to get creamer, Ben messed up my tea, had to go get more creamer, I'm doing laundry, worrying about the pipe, and knowing I still have hours of work ahead of me. Hooray.

Is that enough complaining? I think not. I also realized I have a dentist appointment tomorrow and will have to go to that instead of hanging out with Brit. 😖 Also,
I think I've only flossed twice in the last month. URGH. 

Since I've barely taken any pictures in a week, here are two from this day last year.