February 2, 2021 - Tuesday (120/365)


Day 120 of my 365 Photo Journal

SNOW DAY!!! It's pretty funny that the day after I make a post on social media about how Ohio never cancels anything because of snow, Ohio cancels everything. Thanks, Ohio, for making me look dramatic. 🙄 Our day was pretty fun though, surprisingly. It's much nicer for me to stay home in the snow than attempt to go somewhere. It's still frustrating to get all of the kids dressed and outside, but I don't really have to get dressed, and that changes everything. 

Ben has this thing for igloos and snow tunnels, so while he was shoveling, he piled the snow up really high and then dug this tunnel through it (after making a cool cave that the kids weren't really hanging out in) when we all went out to play. I got lots of pictures of Ollie's butt while she was trying to decide if she was willing to go all the way through or not, but I thought this one of Jonas was more compelling. I love his pink cheeks and the mischievous expression on his face. It's sad, but nine-year-old Jonas is just not even nearly as happy as 7-year-old Jonas was. I miss him being more lighthearted, open, and smiley, but I guess this is just the natural way of things. He's not unkind or anything, just harder for me to stay close to. I have to work much harder for the intimacy that used to come so much more easily with him when he was little. 

Another thought: I've been trying to post more on Instagram and Facebook, usually the photos that I like a lot. I'm remembering why I didn't really want to do that anymore. I get SO upset when I don't get a lot of likes on a picture that I love and worked hard on. That IS why I started this journal in the first place. I hate judging my own work based on how many likes I've gotten on Facebook. I'm not sure if I'll keep posting as frequently or what I'll do. I'm just really bummed about it right now. 

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