July 18, 2022 - Monday


It was a decent day; very work-heavy, which I don't mind. The time flies by when I'm working and I enjoy it. Yesterday, I spent hours organizing and cleaning the bottom floor of the house, but left the den because it was just too crazy to tackle. Today, after working, I finally did the den. It took FOREVER and it just always puts me in a bad mood. I wasn't yelling at the kids or anything like that, but I just ended up feeling sour and grumpy. 

I started the day by finally taking my official work picture. I took 160!!! And I ended up with like 5-6 that I felt like were okay. It's hard taking a self-portrait with a real camera when you don't have a remote! Which I don't. I have been feeling so frustrated with my camera. My photos have been blurry and grainy lately and I can never seem to get enough light. Maybe I should be keeping the flash on the top of my camera like Aunt Deb does? IDK. I always felt like it added an artificiality to the photos that I didn't like, but the freaking graininess is driving me insane! 

Also, I feel like it's worth noting that I've lost over 20% of my body weight now. 46 pounds! It is so nice to fit in my clothes and feel good, like I actually have energy. I haven't been nearly as self-conscious or embarrassed to be in my own skin. I have some confidence again and I rarely feel conspicuous, just for being around. 

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