July 9, 2022


Leaving went fine, but Jonas was crying and everyone is sad and it's crappy to know that we might not see many of these people again until next summer. Either way, I'm very glad to have had this week here and am so thankful that it worked out to get the dates booked for next year. 

I have taken my family for granted for almost my entire life. I have mixed feelings about this. Like, was I wrong? I always felt like they didn't put in the effort towards me and that's why I didn't put in effort to get closer to them. BUT, thinking back, I was a very sullen and angsty young person who really pushed most people away. I didn't have much interest in spending time with that side of my family. It probably didn't help that my mom always talked badly about them either. By the time I had the Holy Spirit in my heart, I feel like I went to things more often, but still didn't pursue close relationships with anyone. So, maybe I was wrong or maybe it just was what it was. Nevertheless, I hope that I can be a more active participant in my family in the future. My kids love being around everyone too much for me to keep my distance. This is going to mean more trips to DE/NJ in the future. It's hard to get out there, but we'll have to try. I don't want to miss everything. 



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