March 24, 2024 - Sunday


Anyone want my job?? Anyone? The morning was good, but incredibly busy. Asking every volunteer I saw if they're willing to stay on for the next program year, cleaning out cabinets, filling in gaps that absent volunteers left, taking kids to the bathroom, and on and on. Ben stayed home with Ruby and Ollie, so at least I didn't feel pressured to leave or rushed in any way. 

Ben played MtG with a few guys this afternoon and I just hung out, cleaned, did laundry, and played Zelda. I also spent a few hours researching curriculum for next year. We use Sonlight and there are better deals now than there are in a week, so I really need to make my decisions and buy the bigger things before the price goes up by 20%. 

Starting to feel really, really stressed! I have a lot of things to do and I feel like I don't have enough time to do them. It doesn't help that I also feel inept, like a huge loser, and like a failure on top of it all. I'm falling short in friendships, marriage, parenting, work, and in my HC life so...it feels like the only thing I've been maintaining at about 80% or so (the best I've got right now) is homeschool and I'm still sucking at that. 

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