March 4, 2024 - Monday


I have really been able to notice an increase in my irritability and sadness lately. I'm really hoping it's PMDD maybe?? And not actual depression? I really, really hope so, because at least that would mean it's going to go away when my period comes. I guess we'll just have to wait and see what happens. 

School was fine this morning. We're getting stuff done and it's going pretty well. I really didn't feel like it, but I walked to the playground with the kids after lunch and then they had quiet time when we got back. I read for the whole thing, which was fun, but didn't dissipate my bad mood at all, sadly. 

I made a quick dinner in my new instant pot, but it's so much different from my old one that I felt really out of my element. I think dinner turned out fine though. I wish I had added a bit more broth than the recipe called for because I kept getting a "food burn" notice or something like that and it stopped the cooking before the rice was all the way done. I'm sure it's just going to be a bit of a learning curve. It's all good!

Home church tonight and I really, really don't want to go. I just want to curl up in bed and sleep forever. Ben asked if I wanted to just go out and have a drink somewhere, if that would make me feel better, but I don't think it would, so we're just going to go! And I'll be ok, as always, just more exhausted than usual after hanging out with a big group. Maybe I'll get lucky and find a small conversation to be a part of. 

I'm just including this bottom picture because I love the way the morning like looks coming through my bathroom window. 



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