March 12, 2024 - Tuesday


Oh, man. Today was a tough one emotionally. I took the kids to Wild & Free this morning and everything seemed to be going fine until this loose cannon kid in the group CHOKED Clemi! Like, literally put his hands around her neck and said he was going to kill her. Of course, the group of kids was far away, so I had to run up a hill to get to her and lecture the kid. I wasn't really sure how to feel at first, but, of course, the more I thought about it, the angrier I became. This kid has hurt other kids in the group and threatens to hurt kids every single week. He calls everyone terrible names and tells them he's going to kill them if they tell on him. It's very, very upsetting and kind of makes me want to stop bringing the kids. But at the same time, I feel for the mom, because she's dealing with him all the time, and I also feel for the kid! Because what tf is actually going on in his household that he feels he has to constantly have the power in a situation and control everyone and hurt them if they don't do what he says? I worry for his little siblings too. I just don't know what to think. Anne thinks I should take a stand and force Val to do something about it. But I kind of feel like it's hard enough for everyone all around that I don't want to add additional stress to anyone. But Clemi is scared of this boy and doesn't want to be around him anymore. Even Jonas said he just stays away from wherever he is, because he's gotten into a fistfight with him before (what??) and he's always threatening him. Ugh. So confused about what I should do. 

Then, on the way home from that mess, I got a text from MJ giving me terrible news about Uncle Ed. It turns out the chemo didn't even touch his leukemia. They say he has a few options and none are great: bone marrow transplant, CAR T cell replacement, or refusing treatment. If he decides not to have treatment anymore, he has weeks, maybe months, to live. But the treatment options are kind of terrible and will mean months in the hospital. It's just awful and my poor dad's heart is completely broken. 

To cheer myself up, I took the kids to the movies to watch Kung Fu Panda 4. It was a pretty fun movie. . And then, when we got home from that, Ben got Chinese food for dinner, and we watched the little Popes for a couple of hours. It went really smoothly. No tears, no fighting, super chill. Our kids got to bed a little later than usual, and then we went to bed too. Hoping for less of an emotionally charged day tomorrow. It was tough to handle all this heavy stuff today. 












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