May 7, 2024 - Tuesday



This was an unprecedented lapse in blogging for me and I felt guilty about it every day. Friday, Saturday, and Sunday were all good days. We had the Brown's over for dinner on Friday and played Dominos after a delicious dinner and dessert. Saturday was incredibly restful. Lots and lots of reading. Sunday brought the beginnings of the stresses of the week, with CT and prep for Monday. Monday was ok. We did great with school, but I had to spend a bunch of time getting snacks ready for HC, which I half enjoyed and half felt frustrated about. Today has been bad. 

I checked my mood/period tracker and tomorrow would be exactly 28 days from the last time I recorded feeling "mood changes", so, if it is PMDD, that would make a lot of sense. It's crazy how fast it all changes! Just Saturday, I was sitting around feeling like life is amazing. I laughed and smiled all day. Today, I'm like a freaking psycho. Pissed at everyone, I yelled several times, feel like divorcing Ben, want to get in the van and run away and never, ever, ever come back. So yeah. Today has sucked, even though it's been nothing but great. 

I took the kids for a hike this morning, which, granted, two of them complained about relentlessly, because they wanted to be creeking. I didn't feel like hanging out with the co-op group, so I took the kids out on my own. Afterwards, we went to World Market to see if there were any good Mother's Day gifts there, but I didn't see anything I wanted. We hung out for the afternoon. I read and played Zelda a little. Then, Ben and I left the kids for a little while to go out to dinner and run to Target for some snacky-type supplies. When we got home, I revealed to Ben that I had gotten him the pickleball net and rackets he asked for for Father's Day, so we set that up and played for a few minutes. See? Nothing but good things. 

I'm off to clean up from dinner and fold clothes. Feeling a little defeated about tomorrow already, but I'll be praying for a better mood day. I'm so sad I'll likely be feeling like this on Mother's Day. It's going to bum everyone out if I'm not excited about their surprises. 





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