December 15, 2025 - Monday


I know I've been staying home a lot, but I never want it to end. We stayed home and did school today. I need to do a couple more dates still this month, but Jonas's birthday is tomorrow and I have so much prep still to do! I need to wrap his gifts and make his cake and get decorations out. In addition, I still needed to do school today and drive him to and from Lighthouse this morning. School actually went really well today though. None of us were grumpy and we got every single bit of our lessons done. I was so happy! In the afternoon, I started Jonas's cheesecake and prepped dinner. 

I did not want to go to home church at all, but I did it! I made it out. And it actually was good. I just have been feeling so distant from people and the more distant I get, the more resentful I get. I know that it's a personal flaw and I'm not proud of it. I have at least learned to question myself when I get like this, but it doesn't stop the feelings from being there. Anyway, I went. I admitted to friends that I am feeling like I never want to leave the house and I want to quit everything. Maybe people will think of me and pray for me. Who knows? It was good to just be around people and be honest about where I'm at, emotionally. Praying it's just a passing phase. 

In reality, though, it probably would have been safer to stay home. The roads were still SO BAD. So icy and scary! I was driving like a snail the whole way. 

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