July 27, 2021 - Tuesday (295/365)


Day 295 of my 365 Photo Journal 

I went over to Jenny's to read today and before we left the house, Jonas shyly asked me if he could read with us, Bible already in hand. I couldn't hear him at first and he started crying because he was too embarrassed to repeat himself! But I pieced it together and, of course, told him he definitely could. During our time discussing Romans 2:1-16, he did contribute a bit. I talked things out and explained some concepts to him that he didn't understand yet (but wouldn't ask about). He really seemed to enjoy that kind of "intellectual" discussion though. (I'm only putting that in quotes, because I certainly don't feel intellectual while discussing things, but that's what it is.) I got Jenny's 3-month photo, although she's about 14 weeks right now, so I'm a little late. Unfortunately, the picture isn't sharp enough for my liking, but it is what it is! At the end of this series, I'm going to go back through and clean everything up and make all of the photos uniform so that I can put them together for Jenny somehow. 

I'm feeling a little upset about something right this moment that I have no right to feel upset about. This is definitely a trend with me, getting upset because people don't tell me things that I want to know. It sounds even worse when I put it that way. BUT. Travis told Ben tonight that Kylienne is pregnant. Like, 22 weeks pregnant. So, we've definitely hung out while she's been pregnant and have texted many times, but she never wanted to tell me about it. It makes me feel like she doesn't think of me as a friend and that makes me feel like I can't trust her and I should stop making effort towards her! I know it's so ridiculous and immature, but those are the feelings I'm having. Ben made some good points: that she's very private, that she likely has not told many people, etc., but it doesn't make me feel better, because it's all about me! 😬 Gross, I know. Anyway, I'll reach out to her and congratulate her and I'll still make effort and I'll still love her and I'll still be in it fully, but I'm hurt right now and it's not a hurt that I feel like I can talk to her about without feeling like an insolent child, so I'll never bring it up. I'm probably going to feel bitter about it forever though, because I hold onto things in my heart for an eternity. I'm typing out lots of things I can be praying about though! Always great to uncover more sin. 😎



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