September 1, 2021 - Wednesday (331/365)


Day 331 of my 365 Photo Journal 

I could have spent my whole day crying if I had had the energy. I've just been feeling so sad. And mad. When I sit and think, I remember that just a few weeks ago I was having this incredible energetic phase, where I got tons of stuff done and I wonder...how does it flip so fast? I'm on medicine for exactly this type of thing. Should I reevaluate? But then I'm just thankful I was productive for a few weeks, at least, and I ignore the other stuff. Changing psych meds is hard and I'm really not up for it. Not when I have so much time that I'm not depressed or anxious at all anymore. 

Jen W. came to visit today and it was so nice to see her! I haven't visited with just her in probably a year and a half. Maybe more? It was a lot of fun and it was good to be reminded of just how much I like her and care about her. I feel like it's easy to forget about our real friends when we don't see them every once in a while. Like Irya, for instance. I love Irya! But when I think about her, I can't remember us ever being that close...even though I know we were. It's so strange. 

Ok, this post is way too weird and feely and introspective or something. I'm finishing up. I got pictures of Ollie in the bath today and they were so fun. She's turning into a little ham and I'm loving how easy it is to use her as my photography subject "all day", as she would say!



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