January 2, 2022 - Sunday


I'm feeling lots of anxiety about sending the kids back to school tomorrow. I've been trying to pinpoint exactly what I'm feeling anxious about: that we had COVID and now they're going back? That I'm worried for them being away from the house? I wish it was anything selfless at all, but I think it's really just that I don't want to go back to getting up early, getting everyone dressed and doing their hair, packing lunches, making sure masks are ready, getting dressed, going to the bus stop, dealing with Ollie in the mornings, etc. I feel pretty safe sending them back, since none of them have any symptoms and haven't for days. According to the CDC, we're well beyond the period of time we would need to wait (although I kind of feel like it's too lenient now). Ben and I still have some lingering symptoms, so we're not quite ready to expose ourselves to the world yet. 😏 But I think the kids are fine. And they're all so excited to be around their friends again and have social lives again! It's a little painful for me, because I'm so comfortable just being home with my family for ever and ever, but that's not enough for everyone. It's okay though. I don't take it personally. I think it's good that they like going out and doing things. I would hate for them to feel stuck. This anxiety sucks though. 

Here's a picture of Ollie sitting in the disaster that is our home. :)

Maybe family pictures tomorrow!?!? I can't believe I still haven't done them. 🤦

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