March 24, 2023 - Friday

I met with Jenny this morning and told her what's been going on. When Ben and I talked about whether or not we were going to share this with anyone, our first instinct was to say no. We have been so afraid of how people will react, what they'll think, and how their impressions of Clemi will change. Will they never trust her again? Will they treat her like she's contagious and keep their children away from her? Alex and Jenny have been some of our closest friends for years and the idea of something like this happening to them and us not knowing or us finding out only later on was a crappy thought. We want to be vulnerable and open with people that we care about. This situation has just made it so hard. Anyway, I don't know if we'll tell anyone else. There's a part of us that's considering getting ahead of any gossip that may happen by telling a few people in our neighborhood, but I just don't know. We don't love them, trust them, or even know any of them all that well. It's a risk and, potentially, an entirely unnecessary risk. For now, we have people we trust that we can talk to when this gets hard, and I think that's good enough. 

I'm really ready for warm weather, no school, and relaxing days spent being outside. I'm feeling so cooped up with all of the rainy, dreary days lately. It's not freezing anymore, but being outside is just sucky right now.