December 6, 2023 - Wednesday


Oh man, I got nothing done today. Jenny came over in the morning and the kids did some independent school work while she was here. They were so good! They got up this morning, did their chores, and started right in on their work. They stayed relatively quiet while I visited with Jenny and, although I thought we'd get some work done after she left, I just wasn't up for it. I just got myself dressed for my Oasis meeting and got some packages ready to be returned and headed out. The meeting went fine, I did a pick up on the way home, and got back just in time to sell my 4t lot of clothes, finally. 

Here's the thing. I'm just done. I'm doing terrible at life and I only want to sleep and cry. I'll keep trying and keep showing up, but I don't want to. I want to quit. I feel like I'm walking through tar, or something, every step that I take. Dinner is taking me forever to prep, laundry...might as well not even be in the works, I'm taking so long to get it done. I'm just pullllliiiiiinnnng myself along, trying to achieve tasks, but ultimately, taking too long to actually be productive. After dinner, Ben convinced me to go for a ride to look at Christmas lights. I have to admit that I'm glad we got out for a bit, but we didn't end up seeing too many lights. The kids asked if we could get in the hot tub when we got home and, big surprise, I didn't feel like it. BUT. I said yes! And they were so excited. It was fun. Ben and I watched a movie this evening that was really good. And then we headed to bed. Another busy day tomorrow! 

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