June 1, 2024 - Saturday


Today was way too busy. I ran this morning, then get myself showered and dressed and went to Megan's baby shower. After the shower, I ran a couple of errands and then we had to get ready for the Faught's to come over for dinner. I would have really liked to cancel dinner, but it just felt way too rude. Dinner was...fine. They stayed for FOUR HOURS though! Way, way too long! Ben and I thought we'd get to watch a movie and relax together in the evening, but they didn't leave until 9, and after getting Ruby and Ollie to bed, it was too late. 

After a week of feeling like me and Ben were doing amazing, I got so frustrated with him tonight. It got dragged out of me that we're planning to move at some point and Ben treated me like I was delusional! He kept rolling his eyes at me and refuting me. It made me feel so sad, because we've been on the same page all along, but it was like he had suddenly turned his back on me and was acting like I was PUSHING him into something he didn't want to do! Dude! This was NOT me! If anyone was going along with somebody, it was ME going along with HIM. So, after they left, I brought it up and he snapped at me and fought with me about it. Eventually, he conceded and said that he did act that way and that he's not sure why, other than fear. But it's like the whole balance is thrown off now. Ben is being super moody and treating me like I did something wrong to him and I'm just really sad about it all. Things were going so well. I guess it couldn't last forever. 

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