May 31, 2024 - Friday


I cancelled pretty much everything today. We were supposed to go to French club, but it feels like what's the point of building in with four new families if we're going to be moving at some point. If it was just Jillian and Christine, I would have still gone, but as it is now, it just felt like too much. I feel like a liar when I hang out with people without saying anything. And I know that's dramatic, but it just feels wrong! At the same time, it's too soon to tell anyone, because we have no idea when or how any of this is going to happen. So I'm stuck in this weird position of wanting desperately to talk about what's going on, but also avoiding seeing people so that I don't have to talk about what's going on, since I have no details whatsoever. It's a mess. 

We also decided not to go to Lily's graduation party this evening, because we heard there were over 400 "yes" RSVPs. I don't think she'll miss us! Dennis might have missed us though. I did end up going to the MNO at Graeter's though. It went on forever and I really wanted to go home. I am just not up for doing stuff right now! I need relaxation and PEACE, for God's sake. Peace!!! I have so much guilt and anxiety about talking to my friends that the only thing that sounds good to me is sitting alone in my house. I'm looking forward to having a more established timeline so I can know stuff!

I didn't take any pictures today, but here is a photo from three years ago today at Pawley's Island, SC.


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