June 13, 2024 - Thursday




Yesterday's work was spackle, today's is cleaning! I spent so many hours cleaning: sweeping, vacuuming, mopping, wiping down furniture and scrubbing walls, reorganizing spaces and putting things back where they belong. This was, of course, fractured by dropping Clem off and picking her up today. I also did a LOT of packing. I cannot believe we're leaving tomorrow! I'm feeling anxious for this trip. It's a long drive, I have no idea if everything will fit in the car, and I have no idea how it'll be being with Ben's family for a whole week. Praying everything goes smoothly!

I went to group tonight, solely because we were having a sprinkle for Brit and baby girl. I was a little stressed going into it, knowing we are supposed to head out in the morning and how much is left undone, but it ended up being a nice time and lots of good time praying. Honestly, though, I felt out of place when I got there. It's likely all in my head. I recognize this! But it just felt awkward and like I didn't belong. I felt like Caitlin and Jenny both looked at me weird (which very well may be because I haven't talked to Jenny in two weeks), but I'm also at my very favorite time of the month when I'm paranoid, angry, and depressed! So...YAY for having mental health issues to give every experience a nice flavor of crazy.

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