February 20, 2025 - Thursday


I can't believe it's already the end of the week. This one FLEW by. I woke up to a message from CACH telling me I was going to be subbing in the pre-k room all morning. *womp womp* I was really hoping that I'd end up with one of my kids somewhere, but I get that I have to go where the need is. This was the first day in a while that I've really felt super regretful/bitter about not being in leadership this year. I wish I had not been so damn brash and that I hadn't felt such an urgent need to inform EVERYONE that we were leaving. I should still be a part of that leadership team, but instead I'm sitting in the pre-k room, soaking up everyone's germs. *sigh* There's nothing productive about that line of thinking, I know. Maybe God will place me there again someday. For now, I just want to serve humbly and work on taking my sadness to Him. I still love that group and being a part of it in any capacity is good enough.

I did no bedroom work again today. I'm just going to wait until it's less cold. I don't want to run to the store and I don't want to make cuts in the garage, so I'm just holding off until the weekend when it's supposed to be warmer. 

I would be excited for pizza and a movie night tonight, but I have to go out AGAIN and I knew I'd be burnt out by today, but I can't skip cell group again this week. I have to go, as much as I have ZERO desire to go. Ollie is so upset with me for being gone three nights already this week and I don't blame her. We haven't gotten to snuggle, and I've missed a couple of bedtimes too. It's been too much for me and too much for her too. One more night of going out! 

*I really think there is no less photogenic room than the one we have our group meetings in for co-op.

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