June 24, 2025 - Tuesday


The beginning of the day was pretty good! I dropped Ruby and Jonas off at camp, me and the girls relaxed, I played some video games, the girls did chores, and then I took Ollie out for a Mommy Daughter date to Starbucks and Giant Eagle. We had fun! I brought up John 3:16 for us to dissect together. She had all the explanations! They weren't all right 😅 but she was 100% confident about it. Ben decided to come home early today and that's when shit hit the fan. I don't know what was going on with him, but he was very...irritable, maybe? Combative, maybe? We argued and he yelled at the kids and it was a mess. 

I left shortly after our argument to get Jonas and Ruby. I called Brit and asked for prayer and texted Rachel asking her for prayer too and guess what. God answered! I was totally calm and content by the time I got to the camp to pick the kids up. I was able to have good convos with them on the way home and then get dinner prepped for everyone with no trace of the unrest, frustration, upset that was going on before the prayer. Ben was giving everyone the silent treatment and then left for a walk. When he got back, he didn't apologize or anything, but his disposition seemed improved, anyway. It's something. 

I was thinking I wasn't going to go to book club because, honestly, I didn't want the kids to bear the brunt of his mood all night. It's just so sad for them when they can't behave normally for fear of pissing Ben off. Thankfully, it felt safe for me to leave, so I got to join. We met at the Wine Bistro in Grandview and I really like it there, usually. This evening, I think their air conditioner was broken. 😟 It was hot and SWEATY in there! But the company was good and I'm glad I went. 

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