June 20, 2025 - Friday



The VBS week is finally over! It has been so, incredibly long and exhausting...and I didn't even volunteer! I'm proud of Jonas and Clem for serving our church's kids over the last couple of months. They did make friends and have fun, but it was also a sacrifice and a commitment. 

I felt bad leaving Erin, Patrick, and Tommy to fend for themselves today, but I didn't really have much choice. Ben was just so grateful that they were willing to come out that he didn't argue about the dates! We really just spent the day at home, aside from me having to drive around back and forth to Main Campus and then Forest Park over and over. We grilled out for dinner, and everything turned out really good! Aside from my asparagus, which turned out kind of...weird. The kids played so nicely together, and they all seemed to have a great time. Kind of looking forward to having the house to myself tomorrow! Not that they've been here for long at all, but just because I'm so ready for a relaxing day and having company is just not relaxing. 

I slept really badly last night. I had a couple of things on my mind that I probably should have just written down, rather than obsessing over them in my head for hours. Let's see...

1. I made myself responsible for buying a gift for Alex and Jenny and wondered how I would organize my morning so I could pick everything up and get the card signed without them noticing. Also, I kept worrying that the flowers would fry up in the car and be ruined.

2. I'm worried that Clem isn't going to get the full Middle School group experience in her current group, PINSY. It's nice that it's close to us out here, but 4/5 are parent leaders who live in this area, and they really don't want to travel out to the other side of town for events or the middle school CT. Clem desperately wants to start going to CT so she can see her friends that she's gotten close to through drama. I wonder if she would be better off going to a group with some of those girls instead. Also, PINSY only has three girls in it. That makes me feel worse for Clem but also makes me feel guilty for thinking about pulling her out. Will the group just die when the hosts' kids age out of it? Also, would Clemi be better off in a group comprised of only other 6th grade girls? 

3. I'm thinking about applying for the class coordinator position with Dwell but am worried Nathan won't consider me as an applicant after my whole thing last summer/fall. I sent him an email asking if he thought I should apply or if he didn't think I was ready to step back into that kind of role. I'm anxiously awaiting his reply and am feeling pretty anxious about what he might say. I'm also not 100% sure I want this job! But I'd like to learn more about it. (I did talk to him about it today and he does think I should apply! But I didn't know this last night when I was worrying.)

4. I sent out an email to other boys' parents from the PINSY group to see if any of them would be willing to serve alongside Jonas at this Christian day camp next week. I've refreshed my email 100 times and it doesn't seem like any of them are going to respond. Jonas is bummed about having to volunteer but I think it's good for him to do it - to stay active and to give his time to others, especially younger kids. 

The thoughts just went round and round and round and round for hours.  

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