August 11, 2025 - Monday


First day of school!!! Everything went off without a hitch, and we all had a really good day! It took a bit longer than it likely will on a normal day. We took a break for lunch and then had to get back at it for another hour or so. It was fine, but made the afternoon seem short. I got groceries delivered at 4:30 and then had to get dinner started right away. I was hoping for some time to do papier mache at some point, but we finished school around 2 and then I was waiting for groceries. I don't know. I probably would have had time to do it, but I'm honestly intimidated about how messy it might be and making the glue. I have to do it, though, because I need to know how it's going to work for my class! I can't keep procrastinating on this forever. 

In the evening we went to HC and that was pretty fun. No deep conversations or anything, but some fun ones, at least. Ben wasn't grumpy, so that was a big relief!

I've been feeling very convicted about the feelings I have towards leaving the house for things I'm not excited about. Here's what I mean: On Friday night, I started to have a knot of discomfort in my gut, just knowing that I had to leave the house for work the next morning. I was also dreading going to the Kramer's Saturday afternoon, just because I wanted to stay home and do nothing. It's just not good or right and I need to find a way to fight it. How can I serve people with a glad heart when my heart gets pissed every time it has to leave the couch??? I'm grateful that God brought it to my attention, anyway. For once, I'm feeling like it's time to stop trying to change my schedule to fit my desires and, instead, work on changing my heart to fit God's desires. Kinda sucks, but I want to be better in this area. 

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