August 5, 2025 - Tuesday




Today was a Wild & Free day and I purposely went a little late so we wouldn't get stuck at the natural play area, since my kids don't like playing there anymore. Of course, it was the one time they skipped the natural play area and went straight to the creek! Haha it serves me right for trying to scheme. :) Our time there went very quickly, and I was sad when it ended. I had some fun conversations. Sadly, on the way home, I had to mete out some discipline and a lecture. Clem ignored a new girl who was there, and it really disappointed me, so I talked to her about that. Then, I found out Ollie lied to me about her evening with Jonas and Clem yesterday. She said they ignored her and sat on their phones the whole time, but it turns out they tried very hard to entertain her, even coming up with a half hour long story/play that they put on for her! Such manipulation! She lied to me in an attempt to get them in trouble and ended up losing screens for a day. 

I worked hard to get the homeschool room ready this evening, made dinner at some point, and took Clem to her new eye doctor in the early afternoon. We liked him a lot and she ended up *kind of* needing glasses. She's really not quite there yet, but we decided to get some for her since the insurance covers it completely and it'll stop her from complaining as much. 😅 Ben took the kids to the pool tonight, but I was too grumpy to go with them, so I just stayed home and worked on curriculum prep. 

I am really struggling with something right now. We had plans to go to Aunt Steph's next weekend, so I reached out to make sure we were still good to go. Well, in response, it kind of seemed like she had forgotten, but still wanted us to come. In subsequent messages, she said that she'd be gone every morning, Uncle Jerry would be gone all day Friday, and they'd both be gone Friday night, playing Canasta. At first, I just felt a little forgotten and unwelcome, but over the last couple of days it has morphed into me not wanting to go at all. What the heck are we going to do in some tiny town in TN all day Friday while we're on our own?? Why would we want to even go there if it's not to visit with them? I'm also getting anxious about sleep because Aunt Steph just said to bring some sleeping bags and we'd all be fine. This is not nearly specific enough for me! Who's going to be in the sleeping bags?? Where will they be sleeping? I'm just feeling like this whole thing is a mistake and we should not be going there. The only reason I'd go at this point it to make her happy...but it doesn't seem like it'll make me, or Ben, or the kids happy. I just don't know what to do!!! Ben has no advice either. He's just kind of like, we'll do what you think is best. *sigh*



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