October 29, 2025 - Wednesday

I maintained a pretty positive attitude over the last couple of extremely busy days, but I lost my momentum today. It was less busy, and I started out in a great mood, but the kids wore me down way too easily. We eventually finished up our schoolwork, after much dragging of feet. Ollie complains day in and day out about school and I just feel so irritated about it. I feel like she's so ungrateful! But I try to remind myself that she has no other real school experience that she remembers, so this is all she has to draw upon, and this is hard for her! She is challenged every day and sometimes she just wants a break from that. I get it. But I wish she would complain and slow things down LESS. That's all. 

After school, we got ready to take Jonas to his doc appt. It went pretty well! More talks about how he could lose weight, but the doc tries to be really sensitive and kind. I appreciate her efforts to be up front about his need to get to a healthier weight, but that she doesn't seem judgmental when she does it. Afterward, I took the girls to choir about 20 minutes late. *sigh* I thought I had until 6 to pick them up and was feeling free and clear! I stopped at Starbucks, then splurged and got us Popeye's for dinner. I just couldn't bring myself to cook today. After me, Ben, Jonas, and Ollie ate, Ollie and I went for a little date walk. While we were out there, I got a text from Amy, saying that the girls wanted to let me know there is no dinner at choir tonight and they need to be picked up NOW. Of course, it was already after 5:30, so I was already late! Ollie and I ran back to the house, and I drove as fast as I could get away with to pick them up. Praise the Lord, there was no traffic at all and I got there in like 10 minutes. Unfortunately, I was having some serious stomach cramping and had to park the car and run past Amy saying, "Bathroom emergency!!!" and was in the bathroom for the next 10 minutes. What a freaking afternoon, man. So embarrassing in multiple ways. Then, Ruby was angry at me for being late and I just could not handle it! I kept it together and apologized for being late, but asked her to consider my position: I got the date of the dinner wrong and didn't realize it, was on a date with Ollie, then got here as fast as I could, while almost pooping myself in the car, just for her to be mad at me! She said she did understand and didn't feel mad at me anymore, thankfully. I made her mom's homemade oatmeal when we got home, because she was also upset that she missed dinner, then finished my date with Ollie. I honestly just can't wait for this day to be over. Right now, I'm feeling like I want to fast forward through a couple of weeks to a point where life feels less busy and overwhelming.