June 9, 2022 - Thursday


It's FINALLY Thursday, thank God. It has been a busy, long week. It hasn't been a bad week, just very long. Today was another packed day. We met with Emily and the twins this morning and, later, went on a hike with our mom's group. The playground was fine. The kids had a great time and it was nice getting together with Emily for a bit. The hike, though, got a little crazy. We were just walking at Indian Run and then decided to go over the bridge in Dublin...probably tripling the amount of time and distance of walking. 😳 I mean, I was down. I was excited. But it just got to be a lot by the end. Ollie fell and scraped her knee while we were crossing the street, which was very dramatic. And one of Shannon's kids was furious and threw a whole tantrum because he got his own shoe wet. But, overall, it went fine. 

So, I'm doing ok. I'm holding it together. I'm keeping up. I'm enjoying a lot of the days. Visiting with people has been good and it is nice that the days aren't spent just sitting around. BUT. I'm feeling myself becoming sad. It's been coming on for a couple of weeks and it isn't bad right now, but it's there. The cloud is there, hovering above me. It's still pretty thin and wispy, but it's there. Praying the depression misses me just this once. I don't want to pause life and hide in my hermit hole right now. 

Another big, pressing thought I've been having lately is art. Haha I know that is vague. Also, photography IS art and I'm still doing it, but I'm thinking more along the lines of self-expression and of making with my hands. I'm no Van Gogh, but I have some talent and I'm not using it at all. I want my kids to see that adulthood doesn't mean letting go of everything you love to do. I want them to live creative lives. And I want to paint, and throw pottery, and sing, and turn boring things into beautiful things. We'll see if the urge passes or whatever it is that happens when you let go of the things you care about 😐. 






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