October 28, 2022 - Friday


I'm finishing up Jonas's costume today and it's looking pretty darn good! He's excited about it and that's the most important part, for sure. The foot part is a little weird and Brit suggested elastic going underneath. I dismissed it at first, because I misunderstood her vision, but after more thought, it's a great idea. I'll put it underneath like stirrups and it'll be just the thing to keep the feet from looking wonky. 

We had the Halloween HC party at our house tonight! It was a fun time. I loved seeing all of the kids (and adults!!) dressed up and the trick-or-treating went really well. We invited a few other families from the neighborhood, but none of them came out, which is fine. I invited them like an hour before the party, which didn't give them much time to wrap their heads around going to a party with a bunch of strangers AND dressing their kids up beforehand. If we're still here next year, I'll have to give people more time. 

Speaking of next year, I've been less focused on the move lately, which I'm thankful for. There's no point in worrying about something that we have no control over right now. I'm upset about the mortgage rates and, at first, felt like they were ruining our plans, but, with time, I've more come to terms with the idea of getting the kids in to Calumet, driving a WHOLE LOT for a while, and then moving when we can. It offers us more flexibility, for sure, and potentially less panicked rushing around. I'm still worried about paying for Calumet and whether or not everyone will get in, but, again, things I can't control. 

I've been feeling pretty frustrated with me and Ben's marriage lately. It feels like we're just in auto-pilot and have had very little time to really relate. I think Ben is just super focused on his new job and it's coloring all of our interactions. I have expressed to him that I'm not thrilled with how things are going lately, which stressed him out, of course, but I'm *trying* (not very hard, admittedly) to not be angry and to be patient. His behavior is just reminding me so much of how things were between us when he was working for the state of DE and it scares me. 




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