May 29, 2023 - Monday


Today was better than yesterday. We stuck closer to home, although we stayed plenty busy. It was also still cold today! I wore my windbreaker down to the beach this morning and ended up with my hood up and a towel over my legs for the two hours we were there. 

So. Today we went to the beach in the morning for a couple of hours, came back for lunch, went to the pool for almost two hours (which was ICE COLD. seriously. freezing cold), then came back for dinner. We ordered the Cheesesteak Factory for dinner, which was delicious, and then headed back to the beach for another couple of hours. We're finding that even though it's cold and windy, the kids are much more content when we're at the beach or the pool, rather than on an outing or in the condo. We're actually going back out tonight for a "night walk". I have to admit, I'm not really looking forward to that. 😅 But Ben has been wanting to do a night beach walk since I've known him, so I think it's time I finally give in. I have no excuse to not go anyway. We'll see how it is! It means everyone will be up hours late, which I hate. 

I was thinking today about parenthood: how is it that I can be so desperate for the hard days to be over, but so heartbroken about my kids growing up? I look at them splashing and running through the waves, just playing like kids do, but noticing that they're SO very beautiful and precious in this fleeting period of life, and I am close to tears, knowing that soon they'll be like Jonas, too old to have fun. And not super soon, but soon enough, they'll be like me. Too old to have fun playing. Feeling over-tired and desperate for a break. It just goes so fast and it's so sad and such a relief at the same time. 

Anyway, I'm feeling emotional and nostalgic about my little kiddie boppers today. I hate the screaming and fighting, but I love watching them having fun doing something different and special. 

The top pictures are morning on the left and afternoon on the right. Big difference!








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