July 29, 2024 - Monday


I feel like quitting this blog. I barely ever even take pictures anymore, let alone good ones. My life is also terribly boring and depressing, giving me nothing but complaints to write about. I don't know why I'm still doing this. 

Anyway, we started school this morning! MAN, I wish we could have started school when I was in the good half of my month, rather than the bad half. It went ok though. We got through everything, happily, until Ollie reached burnout. She was working on a very complicated picture for art (her choice!) and kept getting really frustrated. I encouraged her to try to draw something simpler, but she wasn't having it. Before long, she's screaming at me about hating school, never wanting to do this again, forcing me to do more math with her, then screaming about that too! We had a great start, but we did not finish strong. 😅 Ruby did really well though and had a great school day. She did all of her things with very little complaint. I know some of the things were familiar to her, but some were totally new. She rocked it. It'll be delicate work to teach all four of them on the same days and give everyone the amount of attention they need. Ollie needs one-on-one for everything right now and Ruby needs one-on-one for about half. Thankfully, they're working on mostly the same curriculum, so a lot of that is actually two-on-one. :) 

I am having my most depressed day yet out of this horrible bout of PMDD...or whatever the hell this is. I just want to crawl under the covers and never come out. I never want anyone to talk to me again. I don't want to even get hugs or encouragement, because I don't feel like I deserve it. I just want to be gone. But I'm not gone and I'm going to keep going. I grabbed an order at Target and called MJ, which picked me up a little. When I got back, I made a big dinner and it was pretty delicious. Sadly, everyone whined and complained about the food for the entire meal, making me want to pull my hair out, but at least we had dinner on the table and that was a big thing for me today. 

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