July 26, 2024 - Friday


Today was a little crazy. No VBS, but we needed to leave by 1 to get to French Club. I spent the morning baking our overripe bananas into muffins and making pain au chocolat for club. We headed out and had a really great time at Christine's, watching the Olympic Opening Ceremony in Paris, France and making our own Olympic torches. It was just Christine, me, and Kara, which was really comforting to me, because I'm feeling really OVER meeting new people right now! It's just so exhausting. I just wanted to be around people that already know me, to whom I don't have to explain anything about myself. (Btw, I hated using 'whom', but just could not leave that dangling participle out there!) 

After French Club, we headed over to visit Brit and fam. I got to hold the baby!!!! *squeeeeeee!!!* Tori is such a little sweetie. It was a nice visit, although shorter than I would have liked. We'll have to get back soon, especially since Andrew is going back to work full time next week. *shudder* I still have very vivid memories of the feeling of dread I'd get when Ben went back to work and I was all alone with the kids ALL day long. It was torture at first. It always took me months to figure out how to get out of the house again! I need to remember to be praying for her often. 

Against my better judgment, I took the girls to a family dinner with the small group I visited last night. They were doing sliders, s'mores, and a backyard movie. It sounded so fun for the girls and Ben and Jonas were going to be gone playing MtG, so I just decided to do it. Man, it was super awkward at first! I feel like I just kind of stood around, trying to find a place to be invisible, but not unhappy looking, for the first hour. Does that make sense? Like, I really didn't want anyone to go out of their way to come talk to me or feel worried that I wasn't having fun, so I tried to plaster the 'I'm perfectly content' look on my face and just kind of wandered around. It was weird. When we finally sat down to eat, things got a lot better. I did finally get into some conversations and mostly had a good time for the rest of the night. I wish Ben had been there with me. It was a hard thing to do without my husband, for sure. We ended up staying very, very late, because the movie didn't start until 9 and the girls were really looking forward to that part. We left around 10pm and didn't get home until almost 10:30. I know it's not fair, but I really wanted the girls to be super grateful that I took them to this event that made me want to crawl under a rock and hide and I had to fight my fleshly desire to throw it in their face for the entire drive home. I think they all thanked me, but it def didn't feel like enough. Tonight was really hard for me. 

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