July 17, 2024 - Wednesday


Another very rough day, emotionally. I'm keeping it together, but really struggling with having the will to do anything. Susan came over to visit for a little while this morning, which was nice. It's been a while since we've really had time to catch up. Maybe a year and a half? After she left, I headed to my doctor's appt., which was supposed to be a month checkup for my new meds. I got there and they told me they didn't have any appointments for me in their system! So, Doug's nurse didn't put the appt. in, and I just had to turn around and go home. Thank God I don't have to hire sitters and stuff anymore, because that would have been a very upsetting situation if it were a couple of years ago. As it is now, it was just a minor inconvenience. I headed back home after making an appt. for next week. 

Sadly, after I got home, I couldn't seem to get myself off the couch. I just sat and stared at my phone for like 2 hours. It was pathetic and I was so mad at myself. I kept wondering if maybe I had a puzzle somewhere that I could at least work on, rather than just being a lump, but I couldn't get the motivation to get up and look for it. I did not enjoy my down time at all, of course, because being on my phone is draining and depressing. I did eventually drag myself up and put in a load of laundry. I also picked up a book, rather than continuing to scroll on my phone.

We took the kids to Bob Evan's for dinner, to make up for yesterday. We went to a different location though. 😅 It was a very successful dinner out! A lady at another table even sent us some cinnabites, just to be nice. We were all very touched by her thoughtfulness and generosity. Tomorrow, I have a play date with CACH scheduled, but I really don't want to go. I think the kids will force me to, though. Maybe God will bless me with a rainy day and I can just stay home?? I'm not holding my breath. 

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