September 17, 2024 - Tuesday


Is it becoming a common theme that things aren't great with Ben? I think so. It's hard to talk to him about it, though, because he's really sensitive right now. And today is the anniversary of his mom's death, so I need to just give a little grace. I know he's not going to get what I'm talking about when I do bring it up anyway, which makes me want to avoid the conversation even more. 

Today, we went to Wild & Free at Whetstone. It was a good morning. We got there just about on time and hung out for a couple of hours. I had really terrible cramps, so I was struggling a little, but the conversation and company couldn't be beat. I finally got some time to just catch up with Anne, and really appreciated that. I also got to talk to Claire for a while, who is struggling way worse than me. It's not good that she's in a hard spot in life, but it is good to get some perspective sometimes. 

I didn't feel like cooking dinner today, because I had book club, and I know Ben was disappointed. I made us all some egg sandwiches and called it a day. Then I headed out to Gallo's for book club. I was soooo close to not going, but decided at the last minute that I did want to be there...and didn't want to be home with Ben. It actually went really well and I had a fun time visiting with everyone. I was so happily surprised that Megan came!!! That was great, getting to catch up with her and Rachel a bit. I didn't even know Rachel was going out of town this weekend! Of course, being with the two of them makes we miss HC and girls group a whole lot. I don't know that I feel like I can't go back, but I don't know what to make of Ben's attitude towards church. He's pretty set on having a decision one way or another (not that he's going anywhere or doing anything) and if I waffle, will that just make things harder for him?? Ugh. I wish he weren't making life so complicated right now. As if I need extra complications. 




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