November 18, 2024 - Monday



We had a field trip this morning to the Raber Farm. It was, honestly, a bit of a bummer. We did get to pet animals and stuff, but the description said that the kids could ride a horse and they decided last minute to not do that. We spent a couple of hours there and then came home. 

In the evening, I did go to HC and it was really good. It didn't feel awkward. It felt like home to me. Of course, it just makes things more difficult with the other group, because it's seeming more and more like I'm going to have to disappoint them all next. But I've known all along that this church doesn't feel right; it was easy and convenient, and I thought it was just going to be for a really brief time before we moved to DE. Trying to pray through all of these thoughts and worries, but I don't feel like I'm hearing anything back. Just over here yelling into a void. 


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