August 22, 2021 - Sunday (321/365)


Day 321 of my 365 Photo Journal 

I just cannot believe I've kept up with this journal for nearly a year. I still haven't figured out what I want to do when the year is up. I feel like I'll just continue on, but I want to decide if I'm kind of committing to another year, or if I'm going to do this on a day-by-day basis. Like, rather than catch up on days that I'm behind on, just kind of pick up and write where I am. I'm just not sure! I like that I've found something I'm consistent with. Even though I tend to let everything else fall to the wayside, I've kept up with this ONE thing that's just for me.

Today has been slow and pretty easy. I was upset for a few hours because Jonas has been acting like such a jerk. Just being an instigator with his sisters, laughing when I tell him to stop, stuff like that. But as soon as I put my foot down and he's in actual trouble, it's all crying, and excuses, and mom doesn't understand what's been happening, it was everyone else's fault. He's been kind of a mess lately. It's like, when he's not playing video games, if we're not directly engaging him, he's being a butt. Honestly, even when he's playing, he's not paying real attention to anyone, but he makes sure he chimes in with insults and rude comments. I just want to put him in the basement and not let him back out for the whole day. Luckily, tomorrow is Monday! So he'll be occupied at school. I guess what I should really do is take some time to sit and talk to him about what's been going on. Not that this method typically gets me anywhere, but I still want that to be my practice: talk first, discipline later. I just want to maintain my relationships with my kids as they get older and more complicated! I'm so scared they're going to shut me out of their lives. 

This afternoon, we disassembled the crib for the last time. I didn't cry or anything, but I did feel pretty emotional seeing it taken down and the space filled up with other stuff. We're setting it aside for the Torellis and I'm happy to be saying goodbye to it, but sentimental at the same time. It feels like I'm leaving something behind, if that makes sense. Like, that mom with a tiny baby phase is officially over and I'm moving into this phase of rebellious pre-teen. Obviously, I still have a toddler, but she's been a joy lately, compared to the oldest two. She's still pooping in her underwear :(, but has stayed completely dry for six days or so. I'm pretty excited about it! I'm not sure what to do about the poop, but at least that's only a once a day problem. EDITED TO ADD: She peed on her bedroom floor today for no reason, so I take back the dry for six days part! 

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