April 15, 2024 - Monday

I started the day feeling pretty darn good. I had a plan, I had a positive attitude, and I worked towards my goals for hours. For some reason, a little before dinner, I just started breaking down. And, actually, I can pinpoint what set it off. The damn drill! Okay, since yesterday, I’ve started noticing that things are going missing. It started last night with our bedroom tv remote being gone. Ben falls asleep to the tv every night, so that messed up our whole evening (I mean, it was fine for me. I usually just read a book. But you know what I’m saying.) Today, the school tablet was missing, so Ollie did no real school stuff today and just kind of drew and played. Then, the screwdriver I use to fix the vacuum clogs was gone, and the straw scrubber brush was gone, and THEN, when I went to put together the wood I had cut to size for our new fish table, the freaking drill battery was almost dead!! And the charger was, you guessed it, GONE. I honestly believe my dad took it with him when he left because he was so worried he’d leave his here, but he says it’s in our house somewhere. Alas, I could not find it, so the fish table is unstable. Ben helped me move past it by helping me with getting fishy things moved over anyway. The house being in this state of transition is driving me crazy. It’s cluttered, and dirty, and disorganized, and I am uncomfortable just being in it! But once we got the fish stand/table settled, I deep cleaned the rest of the downstairs for the entire evening, and I feel much better now. I also made a successful dinner that almost everyone liked, which is always a good feeling. Teriyaki chicken, cauliflower rice for me and regular rice for the kids (a blend for Ben), and ginger soy green beans. It was pretty yummy! Thankfully, Ben cleaned up from dinner tonight before he went to HC and I did end up having 30 minutes to play Zelda before I came up to bed.