April 10, 2024 - Wednesday


Some really crazy anxiety kicked in today. I am so, so, so very overwhelmed! Even the smallest things are making me feel like a crazy person. I had a hair appt at 1 and you would have thought I was driving off to something terrible. But I did school and headed over anyway. I don’t really like the way my hair looks, but at least it’s not half and half yellow and black anymore!! And it only took two hours, rather than the 3-4 that's typical. Thankful for that!

We had plans to meet the Johansons for dinner, but Mark was feeling sick (thank God, because I was going to cancel anyway) (I'm just realizing how shitty it is to thank God that someone else was feeling sick) so we postponed. Then I cancelled on our MNO that I pushed for because I am going insane. Here are the contributing factors: Ruby’s birthday party Saturday, for which I have zero finalized plans and/or supplies, unfinished bathroom floor and washer/dryer preventing anyone from using the toilet comfortably for a week now, tortoise ordered and coming Friday morning and I have no idea how to care for it, Trish wanting us to come and get the fish this weekend, but I have SO MUCH GOING ON and hate that she’s thinking I’m being flaky, and lots of feelings of discontent with church hovering in the background of my mind. After dumping this all on Ben, he suggested I spend some time planning for the party. I took his advice and feel a little less like I’m going to implode/explode simultaneously.



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