April 2, 2024 - Tuesday



Today was a lot of wait and see. We got warnings that we'd have some of the most extreme weather Ohio has ever seen. We were told to expect tornadoes, 1" hail, and powerful winds. We were warned to expect power outages! So, we didn't go to Wild & Free in the morning and we waited. But, aside from a couple little showers, we had no bad weather. I brought the kids outside to change the pace of the morning, because everyone was bickering, and it was driving us all nuts. I told them that there would be worms that needed saving! So that's what they did. They "saved" dozens and dozens of yucky worms and it kept them busy for an hour and a half! And I got some really fun pictures. So we were all happy. 

Ben went out to get some stuff for his work meeting tomorrow and, while the garage was empty, I decided to finally cut that piece of plywood for the bathroom floor, under the washer and dryer. I got that cut and cleaned up the mess, then decided to go one step further and get it installed! Ben helped me move the washer and dryer and I screwed the plywood down. I went even FURTHER and put down tiles! I got kind of trapped back in the space behind the washer and dryer, so I couldn't finish the tile work back there, but I got it 2/3 done. I'm hoping to get more done tomorrow. It could be tough with all of the things I have on the schedule, but here's hoping! Since I'm leaving Thursday, I'd really like to have most of the work done before I leave. 

I spent more time thinking about and absolutely dreading the convention this weekend. I wish I knew why it's so hard for me to do things. Ben asked me today if I had any ideas, and I really just don't know! I think I feel loneliness when I leave, but usually it's discomfort...I think? Having to pretend so, so much. It's exhausting. Putting on smiles, making small talk with people, not wearing what I want to wear, being around lots of noise. It's just all a lot for me. And this is a longer thing than usual, making it even harder. And the fact that my nights won't even be a chance for recharging, since I'm sharing a room with a woman I barely know and I'll have to keep up the 'I'm a fun person' charade even in my down time. Ugh. Why do I get myself into these messes?? I did finally register though, so I guess I'm actually going. 





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