September 20, 2025 - Saturday




Sleep wasn't awesome last night. Ben was tossing and turning for hours, and he drank too much so he kept having to leave the tent to pee. He also had this weird sleepwalking episode in the middle of the night where he was convinced one of our kids was outside of the tent wandering around, and I had to yell to him that they were all in their sleeping bags. It was pretty frustrating. He kept apologizing when he came back in, but his sleep has just become such a problem lately and I'm feeling really over it. It's like, when he has an issue, he REALLY has an issue. Right? His main current issue is insomnia and because he has insomnia, I never get to rest well unless he sleeps in a different room...which I practically beg him to do every night, but he is really resistant to it. I don't know. He is such a complicated man. I have no idea why he won't just sleep somewhere else, but he has said he thinks I'm just pretending to be okay with it, which I'm not, and he feels like we'll never have sex, which we don't anyway, so...I'm not sure what the real issue is. I don't know if he's self-aware enough to know what the real issue is. ANYWAY, that was a long side note. Point of the story is, sleep wasn't very fun.

Today was pretty great though! Travis and Kylienne were in good spirits, although they left pretty early to get Jace down for a nap. We had fun hanging out with HC friends and went to the beach for a couple of hours. Meals turned out well and the fire was fun. Ben did leave to go home and sleep this evening, which was such a relief. I was hoping for more of a nighttime fire hangout tonight, but when I came back from the bathroom with the girls, everyone had left. Patrick, Caitlin, and James all went to sleep early, Matt was watching football at another site, and Noemi and Kaitlyn were whispering to each other, so I didn't want to intrude. I just came into the tent to read. It's comfortable and pretty relaxing! Praying for a much better sleep tonight. 

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