November 21, 2025 - Friday


I cannot even express how absolutely exhausted I feel. And I know it's not warranted. Many people are busier than I am and I'm out of the phase of life when my kids should be exhausting me. Alas, I am SO out of patience, SO irritable, SO over all of the questions and all of the "mom"s, whether it's fair to the kids or not. Ollie had a tantrum for almost an hour this morning because she lost one of her pencils they use in art class. I had no idea where to find it and offered lots of logical points: you can borrow from a sibling if you need it, just don't mention it to your teacher at all, I'm nearly certain your teacher will not ask you to use it and will not notice. Nothing mattered. She screamed over my words, thrashed like a wild person, ran up to her room wailing, kicked her radiant heater over, denting the floor, was entirely inconsolable. Over a freaking pencil. I almost gave in to letting her skip art, but I decided to just stay firm and have her deal with the natural consequences of being careless with her new things. She actually ended up having a wonderful time at art class. 

Once art was over, I just could not do school. I was so mad still from the morning and I just wanted to clean the house. Who knows why. It already looks awful again! So that's how I spent the next five or six hours, intermittently reading, watching tv, and cleaning. The kids pulled out all the old Little People we still have left and have been playing with those. I also sorted through the old toys to see what we could get rid of. The answer was none of them. 😅 Maybe I could let go of some of the old puzzles or board games. I'll go through them tomorrow! 

*Clem did this self-portrait today. I think she did a great job!


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