November 3, 2025 - Monday



Okay, my anxiety has been building and building for days. I'm not trying to be a broken record about it on here, but my stomach has been in knots since Wednesday/Thursday last week. Tonight is one of the things I've been anxious about and it is so sad for me to feel that! I love to sing. It shouldn't make me stressed out!!! I am a good singer. I love singing. Why should I feel anxiety about doing something that I love and am good at??? My body is a damn traitor, but my mind is even more of one. Anyway...

I tried to do school this morning, but today was the only day that Jenny and I could get together and Jonas had to go to his co-op too. By the time Jenny and I were done and I had picked up Jonas it was already 1:30 and I was just like, forget it. I spent the afternoon with Ruby and Ollie cleaning out the garage and getting the rest of the Halloween decorations put away. It was definitely worthwhile work! It needed to get done and I am glad I carved the time out for it, but it's starting to look like we won't be able to do any school this week. In short, I have the stuff I did today, Wild & Free Tuesday, working the parenting meeting Wednesday, CACH w/ picnic on Thursday, and our new art class Friday morning. Maybe I can squeeze a little school in on Friday? But it almost feels like there's no point by then. I can just start fresh next Monday. And it relieves a little of my anxiety to know that I don't also have to worry about doing school. We haven't taken any time off yet and we're 11 weeks in. We've been doing really well.

Okay, home church. Angela begged off because she said she had a headache and Grace said she couldn't come because she had to pick up Jessy from basketball, so no guests today. Tony really set up a whole concert thing today! It was very cool. I signed up for karaoke and sang second. I felt like I was going to shake through my skin by the end of the song! But it did go well. I drank a cider and was able to get up there and sing a duet with Rachel. Noemi and I also sang together at the end, but the speaker was messing up and our voices clashed and it was pretty painful to listen to. 😅 Ben recorded the whole thing and I was a little scared to hear myself, but it really didn't sound terrible! 

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