April 20, 2021 - Tuesday (197/365)


Day 197 of my 365 Photo Journal

WHEN am I going to take the time to plan a fun photo shoot again??? I'm getting frustrated with myself for never acting on my ideas...not in photography, not around the house, not even for myself! It's like I'm just constantly drained and anything extra that I do is pulling from resources that are already depleted. It feels like it shouldn't be like this, but I don't know how to not feel tired and overwhelmed all the time. Even today, for instance, I basically did nothing. I played with the girls, I read, I was on my phone an incredible amount, I cleaned up the den, did the dishes, and cooked dinner. NOT that much stuff. Really. I need to get in prayer about this, because I just haven't even talked to God about this struggle. 

In other, sadder news, Mommom will not live much longer. She just has a couple of days left, at most. She lived a good 95 years, filled with love and family (from my outside perspective...I hope she sees it that way!). It's difficult to see her go, because she has been the matriarch of the Bowman family for my entire life. Sundays and holidays revolved around Mommom's, growing up, and still do for the people who live close-by. I hope our family can pull together and still find ways to stay connected, as a group, after this. 

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