April 21, 2021 - Wednesday (198/365)
It snowed overnight, which we were expecting, but still surprised about at the same time. The part that surprised us was that it actually stuck. The kids were really excited to see the snow and I took Ollie out for a walk in the morning, before it all melted away. The boughs of this big evergreen at the corner of our house were so loaded with snow that they drooped in just the right way to make this little snowy alcove. I thought it was so beautiful and was glad I saw it and made Ollie stand in it for a picture. And then she refused to look at me. SO. It's a nice picture, but it could have been a great one, I think, if only my little stubborn subject had just looked at me, instead of staring away chanting, "cheese. cheese. cheese. cheese."
I realized we have next to nothing in our checking account today, which stopped my heart for a second. But we spent most of our lives with barely any money, so it just took a minute to gather myself and remember, hey, you don't actually need to buy anything right now! You're fine! It's so strange seeing how my behavior and feelings towards money have changed over the years. It's like, the more we have of it, the more scared I am to lose it. It used to be the norm to end a week with $10 in my account (and feel literally NO STRESS about it!). Now, if it's under $500, I get worried. I mean, things have changed a bit in the world of bill pay too, though. We have a lot of automatic payments set up, where if we don't have enough money in the account, we get fees and all that fun stuff. In those old days, I just paid things late if I had to and that's all there was to it. Anyway, I'm going to just be grateful for the reminder that today gave me. I need to be more grateful for the money we have and less stressed about it, because God has ALWAYS, ALWAYS, ALWAYS provided for me. He has always made a way. And He always will.
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