February 16, 2023 - Thursday

It definitely feels like a Friday! The kids and I are all off tomorrow and I just want to stay up late and party. But I won't, because then I'd end up feeling like crap and being in a bad mood tomorrow. 

Today was a busy one. After dropping Ollie off at school, I worked, read a few pages, got Ben's cards ready to ship, and then picked Ollie up early. We ran to grab food from Panera and then met Ben for lunch. I had planned to have "a talk" with him about his recent outbursts of anger and how he's been taking it out on the kids. I've been feeling really upset with him about it, but I've been biding my time, knowing that talking to him while he's still angry would not be helpful. He asked me immediately after seeing me what was going on and I told him I wanted to talk to him. He asked if it was about how angry he's been and then he confessed that he was feeling really guilty about the way he's been treating the kids lately. I just added in that he really should do some introspection regarding the way his anger is coming out because it's not ok to use our children as his verbal punching bags. We stopped there and I'm ok with that. There's only so much I can say to him, but I will protect my kids from him if I have to. I don't know exactly what that would mean, but I'm not going to sit back while he treats the kids like garbage every time he's having a crappy day. So...I don't know. He's usually great, but it seems like every time I have to leave the house at night, the next day I hear about how awful he treated them.

After lunch, I took Ollie to the Columbus Museum of Art and got a membership!!!! It could be a huge waste of money, but if I go just a few times this year, it will be worth it. We wandered around for a while. The kids area is cute, but pretty boring. 😅 But it is a great place to go and kill time. We barely scratched the surface in the hour and a half we were there. I think we looked around 2 1/2 exhibits. We got out of there and I realized that I had barely any time to run to the store, go to the post office, do my pickup order, get the girls, and then get Jonas by 3:50. Let alone work...which I did not end up getting done. I was rushing like a crazy person and while I was in the neighborhood just about to the bus stop, I GOT FREAKING PULLED OVER!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! I was speeding a lot. Granted. But noooooooo!!!! I was so upset. I haven't been pulled over in forever. Like, college maybe? I got a ticket for parking in a no parking zone when Ben and I were still dating and that's my last negative run-in with the popo. Anyway, that sucked. So bad. So so bad. I ended up getting all the kids just a little bit late and the rest of the evening went fine. 

I just have to take a paragraph and complain about my period. It's horrible. It's so heavy, it's almost unbearable. I'm changing an ultra tampon every hour and a half. BUT, even worse, it's super, super difficult to get ultra tampons. I have such a hard time finding them! Target never has them, Kroger doesn't carry them, CVS doesn't have them, my local Walmart didn't have them, even Amazon doesn't sell them for a normal price!!! They sell them for $30 a box! I end up having to get these mixed boxes of different size tampons that only contain 8 ultras and I literally have no need for any of the other sizes. I either have no period or I'm hemorrhaging. Target will deliver them, but I'm not going to get them until Sunday. My period will basically be over by then. I have no idea how I'm going to get through the next couple of days with 7 more tampons. Super upset. I'm way more upset about this issue than the freaking ticket! I have to change a super plus tampon within 45 minutes of putting it in. It's basically pointless. I should just lay somewhere and bleed all over a plastic sheet or something.