February 5, 2023 - Sunday

We headed to church at our normal time this morning and got there around 9. Our training was today, so I was a little less helpful with check out, having to talk to people about their roles in the training and whatnot. Thank God for Ben, who did almost all of the set-up. He got out the printers, turned on the tablets, put them in their cases, got out the sign, and he and the kids handed out all of the walkies and supply bags. I am so thankful that he was there to help me! I would have been a mess without him today. 

CT time went pretty well. Most of the rooms had decent days and volunteers were showed up. I really tried to have a "talk" with Bob about what an ass he is, but I chickened out and I'm super embarrassed that I just can't seem to do this confrontation! Anne offered to do it for me, but it feels like I NEED to, if I'm going to be the one in this role. Now that I didn't manage to do it, I'm seriously thinking about letting her do it. 😅 I kind of just want to fire him and not ever have to talk to him about anything ever again! I know, it's ridiculous. But he's just not a team player. He does these no-shows that throw our entire Oasis time off kilter, because teachers expect him to be there and he doesn't give me a chance to find a sub. And he always agrees with everything I talk to him about, but then does his own things anyway! Like, today, I gave him a schedule for which rooms to go in and the infant room was last. He agreed that he would definitely go in there, but he just never did. I saw him finish up his last big kid room and then walk to his stuff and pack up for the day. We literally talked through the schedule and he told me, YES, I will do it. 😑 I'm so annoyed. And I so wish someone else would handle this for me! 

The training went well. Nathan did the whole safety part and I just did the appreciation part. I was shaking in my boots (well, Birks), but Ben said I didn't seem nervous at all, thank God. I probably only talked for 3 minutes and then I asked people if they had any encouraging stories to share. Ben said that this was the only place I kind of messed up. I just hate that space of time between asking a question and people answering. If I don't feel like anyone is going to answer, I'll just move on! Ben said I gave people literally 5 seconds before I was like, well! Let's move on then! Five people ended up sharing and I acted like we were going to leave between each person. 😅 Haha oops! Still, not the worst it could have gone. And I'm so glad it's over. I've been anxious about it for a month. 

The rest of the day was nice and relaxing. We all watched the second Black Panther movie together and ate popcorn. We ordered in and had wings and fries. It was a good afternoon! I'm feeling optimistic about the week. Tomorrow afternoon might be a little hectic, but hopefully I can be productive and in a good place. 

Oh, I made an appt with my urologist to look into wtf is happening with my body. It's on Thursday. I'm not having any UTI symptoms right now, so it's really tempting to just cancel, but...idk. I kind of feel like I should just go in, because it's still weird that it takes me like a full minute to pee. Really not looking forward to having anyone look at my vagina. I freaking hate appts like this. And Ollie will be there with me, so that's fun!