February 22, 2023 - Wednesday

Discovering the joy of Pez.

Maybe that loving Wednesdays thing was a fluke. This one wasn't all that great. 😅 It's probably just me. I'm getting into a (possible?) depression, I think. I'm just foggy and bummed out. Can't focus. Just generally sad. I'm praying it doesn't last long and that God can still use me, even while I'm struggling a bit. I have work to do and I don't want to be sidelined by depression. We have these new neighbors we're trying to befriend and I want to really build in with Meghan and Trey so that they don't feel too out of place or lonely in our group. Depression makes me want to hide in bed and not talk to anyone. Can't do that! 

My UTI feelings are back and I am just so overwhelmed by it. I really just cannot deal with this. 😑 I had my gyn appt yesterday, but she had no idea what could be causing my ongoing discomfort and issues, so it looks like I'll have to actually go to the urologist, which I really, really don't want to do. Did I talk about what the gyn said about my bleeding? I don't think so. I am going to have an ultrasound next month, just to be sure that there's nothing crazy going on, but she doesn't think so. She said that there are just some very unlucky women who bleed a ton. BUT, there are options! Which I had no idea about, so I was really relieved to hear that. I'm going to start with this medication that I'll take during my periods that is supposed to lessen my bleeding considerably. I like that it's temporary and will be easy to find out if it works. Another option is an IUD, which I don't really want to do. She said that "some women" experience relief from heavy bleeding with it, plus it doubles as birth control, which is good. The downside is that if I don't bleed less, then I'll just have this piece of metal in me for the next 8 years. The upside is that I'll probably be going through menopause around then, so I most likely won't have to get another one! The third option is ablation, which is basically them burning the walls of my uterus so that they're so covered in scar tissue that blood doesn't form on them anymore. This is the most tempting option to me because it means NO MORE BLEEDING EVER and, I'm guessing, no chance of becoming pregnant either. She said insurance won't allow me to just go straight to that option. I'll have to "fail" at the medicine that slows down my bleeding before I can request it. So that's that. It's a start. 

I'm finally starting Ollie's quilt! I tried to have the other ones done for the kids' first birthdays, but somewhere between her 4th and 5th birthday will have to suffice for this one. Once I'm done, I'll start making Jonas's quilt using the baby clothes and shirts I've saved for him over the years. What pre-teen boy wouldn't want a blanket made out of baby clothes?? 😅

Oh, and my color this month is magenta-ish. I found three places I could go to that would have that color in the background: one is the bubble tea place that Brit suggested. Another is somewhere in the city that I found on a Columbus street art website that just has a pink/purple block of color on the wall, and another was also suggested by Brit and it's more of a mural kind of thing, but has those colors in it. Now, I just need to come up with the energy to get everyone/someone dressed and out to one of those places. 



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