January 15, 2025 - Wednesday

This is the only picture I've taken since Sunday, to accuse Ben of eating my special Damask chocolate-covered pretzels that I love so much. He says he's not eating them. I'm suspicious. 

School has gone amazingly well all week. We got our whole weeks' curriculum done in three days and I didn't even get any talkback or tantrums. It's been great. I've been spending afternoons relaxing some and working in Clem's room some. It's just been absolutely freezing cold. So, while we did go get the trim for her room (finally) on Monday evening, it's been so frigid that it's hard for me to be in the garage cutting for too long. I finished putting it all up today, but I still need to caulk and paint it. Really, really hoping I finish those two steps tomorrow or Friday! Then we can get her rug and her nightstand and move her dresser into her room...and it'll be done! Except for the closet. I did decide to do everyone's closets too. They're pretty useless the way they are. But Ben says I shouldn't do her closet before I start other rooms. I don't know why I am taking his opinion into consideration when he's not participating in any of the work at all, but whatever. I don't need to start a fight over something little. I would like to do it before I start the girl's room though, so when I empty out their closet, I can actually put Clemi's things where they belong.

I didn't go to HC on Monday night solely because I didn't feel like it. I feel guilty because I've decided that I'm back in, but then I'm still not showing up. I just wish I liked going out and doing stuff more. I'm also so out of the habit that it's making it hard to get back into it. I'm hoping it's a little easier for me once we're meeting at Jenny's house instead of in Westerville. Ben tells me he's not sure he's going to be comfortable leaving the kids alone while we're at HC now. It's very, very annoying to me. They did fine the time we tried it and Jonas keeps an eye on the girls all the time. Suddenly it's too far for too long. Just frustrating. I feel like he's always got some reason to not go back to HC. I also skipped book club last night for the exact same reason. Granted, they were meeting in Gahanna and it was like 40 minutes away, but same basic idea. I didn't want to go out, so I stayed in. Nobody should ever count on me for anything. At least not once it gets dark!