January 2, 2023 - Monday


I had a whole fun topic I was going to talk about today, but then I realized that I lost my planner and now I'm so preoccupied with my lost planner that I can barely think about anything else. I'm going to try to get my brain back on track, but I'm not holding my breath! 

Ollie has been getting up in the middle of the night again. I had a couple weeks of good sleep, but we're back to this ish. Last night though, it was bad. She came into my room twice: around 3:30am, as usual, and at 5:30. Both time, I got up to walk her back to bed, but at the 5:30 time, she started kicking me and screaming at the top of her lungs, refusing to go to sleep, demanding to go downstairs and watch tv. Obviously, I wasn't having that, so I picked her up and started to carry her. She punched me right in my face, knocking my glasses off! OH MY GOSH. I was about to punch her back, I was so freaking mad. I held it together though, put her back in her bed, and told her she could get up when her sound machine turned green. She didn't get back up until 7, but she stayed awake and so did I. Bonus, I was pissed all day today. 

I took the kids for a walk, which would have been a lot of fun if Ollie wasn't sleep deprived and throwing temper tantrums every five minutes. I had to wait while she threw herself on the ground crying twice, with neighbors watching me all judgmentally. Oh well. I've definitely dealt with worse behavior! And I'm thankful for the patience I've learned over the years. I just waited her out and then we walked on. But all of the other kids were home watching tv by the time me and Ollie got back. There were some cute moments on the walk though. Ruby grabbed Jonas's hand and he actually held it for a minute! I was very surprised. 

I'm going to attempt to do some color-themed photography this year. I don't know how well I'll do. I'm starting with purple this month (along with orange as its complement), but I don't think the color idea is really showing up like I expected it to in these pictures. I'm excited for a challenge/goal to focus on though. I enjoy the everyday photography I already do, but I thought this might spice things up a little. :)

Oh, I think I have a couple more resolutions! haha I really need to just stop. I WOULD HAVE WRITTEN THESE IN MY PPPLLLLAAAAANNNNNNEEEEERRRR IF I COULD FREAKING FIND IT!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! But I'll write it here instead. 

I wanted to add to spiritual resolutions that I'm going to try and keep a prayer list/journal. I think it's so faith-affirming to be able to look back and see prayers answered, but I haven't had the dedication to stick with it in the past. I'm going to try again! 

PERSONAL: I want to go to bed by 11 on days that I need to be up early. I also want to shower and/or do self-care things that make me feel good (do hair, makeup, and wear clothes that make me feel confident) every day, if I can. Again with the 'my kids are older now' theme, but they are and I can make the time most days, so I think I should because I can feel the difference in my attitude when I take better care of myself. 





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